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Intimate DesiresWhat is intimacy like?Intimate Desires by infinitelove143
What does true intimacy feel like?
Is it magical? Is it heavenly?
Is it full of pleasure? Is it true and perfect?
What IS intimacy?
Have I sheltered myself off so much
that I have prevented myself
from experiencing such magic?
Have I got lost in the depths
of my sexual fears
and my psychological troubles
dealing with sex abuse?
Is it so much to ask for freedom?
Can I be free from insecurity?
Can I be free from not being confident?
Can I simply experience it?
I thought I was asexual.
That was a few years ago.
I didn't want anything to do with sex.
I just wanted to remain a virgin.
But now that I have been awakened,
now I know I'm a strong heterosexual,
now that I know I was only shoving it all aside,
Should I pursue it,
like many have suggested?
Should I go out there and explore
and see if there's a way to satisfy the need?
Or should I put it off?
Should I put it on the back burner,
focus on other things in my life,
and try to believe it is not a nee
I am Patrick Schmalstig. I'm about 5 feet 5 inches high, and weigh about 115 pounds (yes I'm skinny). I am a feminist. I'm not into the masculinity. Thus, and in addition to other things, I refer to myself as a Third Gender. I am a very high tech geek who runs an internet radio station (SEE THE LINK AT THE BOTTOM OF THIS ID TO GO TO THE RADIO STATION WEBSITE ). I am very sensitive and emotional, and is also there for anyone who needs emotional support or just someone to listen. You may drop me a message or note if you'd like to talk with me. I respect everyone and what they go through. I've probably been there someway or another in most situations.
...oh and I'm very bubbly! XD
I live my life following one motto: Be Infinite Love. I think the world could use more love... a lot more love! My vision and dream is to show the world so much love... beyond what anyone could ever imagine!
My specialty in the art world is Poetry, mainly free verse. I also write prose. I usually write from the heart when I write poetry... it's not just some dumb words put on a piece of paper in a form... they have strong meanings behind them that can be unique to each reader. ...even the very very negative pieces have strong meanings behind them... so they're not necessarily written to scare people.
I sometimes give out llamas and points to those who interact with me.
Meaning behind my username and avatar: My username is infinitelove143. Being Infinite Love has been a motto I live by since my girlfriend opened me up into new spiritual dimensions. The number 143 represents the words "I love you". The avatar depicts the infinite love motto with a heart and the infinity symbol under it. The symbols are inside a tear drop, which the tear drop symbolizes refreshment, renewing, purity, pure of heart. The tear drop has a rainbow fog behind it, which represents the 7 basic chakras in order from bottom to top (Red: stability. Orange: Pleasure. Yellow: Abundance. Green: love. Blue: Communication. Violet: Intuition. White: Connection with the Spirit.). And the other colors and sparkles I added just for special effects !
Please check my works out and critique where possible. I highly appreciate that!
Facebook profile: www.facebook.com/pages/Lovinit…
Canterlot.com profile (need account to view): www.canterlot.com/user/6918-lo…
(Giggle) Well hello there sweet pea! I'm Lovinity Hearts, Patrick's companion out to spread some wonderful cozy warm infinite love. It is our destiny to show the world the power of love... for love can make anything better. Am I right (giggle)?
We are both here for you if you need someone to talk to. I also do role plays on www.canterlot.com! If you'd like to talk to me, just call my name when messaging to infinitelove143. I'd be happy to cuddle... I mean happy to talk with you... (giggle)!
My full profile is here:
Lovinity Hearts Canon Profile---LOVINITY'S PROFILE EDITED JUNE 5 2013---
There, my history, my basic characteristics, my cutie mark info and meaning, and a description of my personality can be read. It's too long to put here on DeviantID (giggle)!
Take care loves!