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The WallThe WallThe Wall by infinitelove143
by Patrick Schmalstig
For many years now, a wall has existed:
The wall of fear... the wall of insecurity.
What goes on outside the wall
was not to pass through to the side I was on.
I was too afraid to let it.
...too afraid to let that demon get by.
...too afraid to face what must be.
Who would have known
that such a fear like this
would come in the way
of my life and my love?
It's so strong...
I've tried what I could
to work around the fear...
to avoid having to deal with it...
to carry on with my life.
...but nothing worked...
And the fear and insecurity continued
as I keep up that wall.
I didn't want to have to face it.
I didn't want to have to see it.
But then a time came.
I grew desperate and helpless.
Nothing was working...
and so I had only one choice left.
...destroy the wall.
With my fear running high,
my panics at a max...
how was I ever going
to tear down that wall?
I wanted to deny it...
deny the truth...
that I h
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001. Real Name: Patrick Schmalstig
002. Nickname[s]: Lovinity Hearts, Patriot Pat
003. Zodiac Sign: Gemini
004. Male or Female: Male biologically
005. Nursery: ?
006. Primary School: Uh... Wright State University
007. Secondary School: ?
008. Hair Color: Blond
009. Long or Short: Long-ish
010. Loud or Quiet: Quiet, so shaddup!
011. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans.
012. Phone or Camera: Phone. My face broke my camera.
013. Health Freak: I'm kind of picky about health, not obsessed though.
014. Drink or Smoke: Neither.
015. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: Always <3
016. Political orientation: Anarchist
017. Piercings: None
018. Tattoos: None.
HAVE YOU EVER [BEEN IN]:
019. Airplane: Nada
020. Car accident: I can't drive
021. Fist Fight: No
022. First piercing: Not applicable
023. First Best Friend: Nick King... since birth... and still is my best friend <3
024. First Instrument played: I can't recall. I believe it was the recorder.
025. First award: First place in the local Pinewood Derby.
026. First Crush: Well when I was in pre-school I had a crush on a girl named Megan. No joke lol. Yup I'm pathetic.
027. First Language: English... and only one.
028. First Big Vacation: Michigan cabins
029. Last Person you Talked: Grandma
030. Last Person You Texted: Rhythm Cannon, a Brony friend of mine.
031. Last Person You Watched: I don't stalk naked people.
032. Last Food You Ate: Hershey Kiss
033. Last Movie You Watched: How the Grinch Stole Christmas
034. Last Song You listened to: Some Christmas song
035. Last Thing You Bought: Another month of internet streaming for my internet radio station
036. Last Person You Hugged: Grandma
037. Food: Chinese food
038. Drinks: Fruit juice and milk shakes!
039. Clothing: Pretty dresses... if I were a girl. But since I'm a guy, have to go with... hell if I know.
040 Book: Don't know off hand
040.5 Manga: Too dirt poor to buy such thing
041. Color: Pink <3
042. Flower: Tough one because there are so many wonderful flowers <3
043: Music: Dubstep (except the very hardcore type)
044. Movies: Not really a movie person
044.5. Anime: Pokemon
046. Subjects: Computer classes
IN THE PAST YEAR I ...
047.  Kissed In The Rain
048. [x] Celebrated Halloween
049. [x] Had Your Heart Broken
050.  Went Over the Minutes on Your Cell Phone
051. [x] Someone Questioned Your Sexual Orientation
052. [X] Came Outta the Closet
053.  Gotten Pregnant
054.  Had an Abortion
055. [x] Done something you've Regretted
056. [x] Broke a Promise
057. [x] Kept a Secret
058. [x] Pretended To Be Happy
059. [x] Met Someone Who Changed Your Life.
060. [x] Pretended To Be Sick
061.  Left The Country.
062. [x] Tried something you normally wouldn't like, and liked it
063. [x] Cried Over The Silliest Thing.
064.  Ran a Mile
065.  Went To the Beach
067. Eating: Not anything at the moment
068. Drinking: Water
069. Getting Ready To: Go to bed soon.
070. Listening To: My furnace
071. Plans For Tomorrow: Volunteer 8 hours at my local hospital for Christmas ^^
073. Want Kids: Undecided.
074. Want To Get Married: Possibly.
075. Careers in mind: Radio Engineer, computer repair
WHICH IS BETTER ON A OPPOSITE GENDER:
076. Lips or Eyes: Definitely the eyes <3
077. Shorter or Taller: I prefer same height
078. Romantic or Spontaneous: Both <333
079. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms: Uh... ?
081. Hook-up Or Relationship: Relationship
082. Troublemaker or Hesitant: Hesitant.
HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost Glasses/Contacts: Yes
084. Ran Away From Home: I can't recall
085. Hid A Weapon, For Self Defense: No but wanted to
086. Killed Somebody: No
087. Broken Someone's Heart: Yes
088. Been arrested: No
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself: Sometimes
091. Miracles: Yes
092. Love at First Sight: Not usually
093. Heaven: Yes
094. Santa Claus: No
096. Magic: Yes
097. Is There One Person You Wanna Be With, Right Now: Yes
098. Are You Seriously Happy With Where You Are, In Life: To an extent I am. However I wish I was financially capable to live on my own, I wish I had a job so I could prove to others I'm useful, and I wish what I did do had more appreciation.
099. Do You Believe In God: Yes
100.Tag five people: How is this a truth?
Lovinity Hearts Canon Profile---LOVINITY'S PROFILE EDITED JUNE 5 2013---
Name: Lovinity Hearts
Eye colour: Pink
Coat: All-Maroon body with red shoes
Mane/Tail: Maroon / moderate-red-stripped flame-like mane. Maroon/moderate-red-twirled rounded thick tail... long but not touching ground.
Physique: Her size is about 15% smaller than most fillies her age. Normal weight for her size and type. Wing Power:3.1 in average flight. Up to 10.5 max speed.
Occupation:Main: Being personal love and support to other ponies. CloudsDale: Clearing clouds away and bring out the sun for places too wet, and bring about a refreshing rain to places too dry.
*DESCRIPTION: Red heart with a glowing golden infinity symbol under. The end of the red heart's point connects in-between the two circles of the infinity symbol.
*MEANING: Infinite Love
Lovinity had entered into a period of sadness about not knowing what her destiny was as a younger filly. O